It has been a rough week. I was having a bad week to begin with, just personal crap, you know how it goes. People are dumb, and that makes me cry. Constantly.
But then a friend of mine got into an accident, and things got very rough. It's been hectic; we're all trying to help, we're all trying to figure out what is going on, and we're all sad. Things will be okay eventually though.
The past few days, I have found one solid thing I can depend on as a comfort, and I am almost ashamed of it. I mean, I wish I could say I found comfort in improv, even though the Rabble has been a blast, but I am so out of it and disconnected that if I am doing something good, I am completely unaware, and if anyone else is doing something good, I will catch onto it ten minutes late. My job certainly isn't comforting, since my boss found me crying at my desk today, asked me what was wrong, and then gave me a new case to work on. I am getting to the point, as I typically do, where what I really want is someone to hold me and pet my hair and say, "There, there," but again, no one is spooning me at present. [Relatedly: I thought about putting up a Craigslist ad looking for someone to do this, but I was advised against it for some reason.]
No, the only thing that I really find comforting is a tall non-fat no whipped Pumpkin Spice Latte from Starbucks. I don't typically go to Starbucks [what up, Jose!] but the second seasonal beverages roll in, the second I get flexible with my coffee principles. So I have been having the equivalent of warm pumpkin milk (with a shot of espresso in it) for the past four days, just to feel better. I think it's just like warm milk with some spices, so it makes sense. Isn't there some kind of calming hormone in milk? Or is it just estrogen?
Regardless, I hope I don't gain weight, either from drinking a latte everyday or because stress makes women gain weight and I should get Lipitor. Because I have to do what I have to do right now. And what I have to do is drink an overpriced cup of pumpkin milk everyday. Maybe even two.
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While I am not in your stress induced situation... I too must enjoy myself a cup of warm pumpkin milk from the bucks daily... it is very good and there is no shame in it Mel... none whats so ever and I am even still losing weight drinking this so- party on.
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